Well apparently I am still unloved but I will write ... because I think I mostly write for myself anyways.

I am finding a new level of my relationship with God. Not that it has levels really... but the bible talks about ever moving from glory to glory. I feel like this is a new glory. A new and wonderful chance to get to know who God is in a new way.

As creator,

As my sustainer...

I just feel so helpless in so many ways at this time in my life. I have no way to reach inside and ask my little one " How are you? Doing ok honey? Too hot or too cold? what do you feel like for supper?" No. I just have to be content with the occasional nudge from the inside, and the peace that Jesus gives me. It is so surreal what is going on inside of me that some mornings I wake up feeling like " oh, was I dreaming, there can't really be a little person inside me can there?" But... then I stand up and see my protruding belly and go " Well, either I ate too much turkey over the holidays or there really is a little person inside of me!"

Crazy. It is just another excersise in getting to know my Lord!!!